My go-to's

   I'm sure that no matter what profession you're in, there are things that you find yourself repeating over and over again. These lines get in your routine and it's hard to break that routine. When I worked the drive thru at Taco Bell, I once answered the phone, "Hello, welcome to Taco Bell, I can help you whenever you're ready!" And a few times, someone would come through the drive-thru and order a drink and I would ask them if they'd like any sauce with that.

   Here are a few of the lines that I've found myself repeating as a nurse.

-*Meet the patient, get report* "'I'm Caroline, I'm going to be your nurse tonight. I'll be with you aaaalllll night."

-"I'll be back shortly to check you blood pressure."

-"Can you tell me where you are? What year is it? Who is the president?"

- "I have your heparin shot which is a quick poke in the stomach to keep you from getting blood clots."

-I'll be back shortly to check in on you"

-"I'm going to have to bother you again at three in the morning to get another blood pressure" Then, when three o'clock runs around, I whisper, "I'm so sorry, just going to get your blood pressure."

- "Can you rate your pain on a scale of 1-10?"

- "Now try and get some rest" (In other words, 'for goodness sakes, go to sleep!')

- "I'll be back shortly with your medications."

-"I'm back again. One more medication for you."

- "Anything good on TV?"

-*When I answer the phone* "This is Caroline, how can I help you? "

- "Do you need anything else?"

-"Thanks for calling me back doctor, I'm calling about _____"

-"Have you had a bowel movement today?"

- "I'll be back shortly with some fresh water."

-*When I leave in the morning* "It's been a pleasure taking care of you. I'm going to go get some sleep now, but I hope you have a great day!"

P.S. Sorry this post is boring, but I got called in early to work today, so I'm a little short on time and sleep. Love to all!

-C-

Priorities

   I recently had an admission that came in close to midnight. This patient had a lot going on. She was in restraints after pulling out two IVs, she had a blood transfusion going, she had pressure ulcers, she was on oxygen, she was confused, and had a fast heart rate. When a patient first gets on the floor, there is a LOT of stuff to do. We have to make sure their vital signs are stable, get them into bed with all of the tubes and wires attached to them, we have to get a list of medications, ask admission questions, call the doctors and get orders, and do a buttload of paperwork. Depending on how complicated it is, it can take quite a while to get someone settled.
   While I was taking care of some very basic things with this complicated patient, her daughter proceeded to ask me for things that she thought were very important at that moment. She wanted to be put on the list for a different room, she wanted a fan, she needed lip moisturizer, she wanted a glass of ice, she wanted some gauze to wrap around her mom's arm, and quite a few other things that I am kindly choosing not to remember. While I understand that all of these things are within reasonable requests, at the time they were wildly inappropriate. As a nurse, you have to prioritize. It is one of the hardest things and patients don't always understand why it takes you twenty minutes to bring them a glass of water. I wish it didn't work that way, but it does.
    My priorities with this patient were to make sure she got in bed without pulling out an IV or injuring herself on the restraints, making sure her vital signs were stable and she wasn't having a reaction to the blood she was getting, making sure she was getting enough oxygen, and calling the doctor to get orders. While the daughter continued to ask me for things, my response was, "I'm going to get your mom all settled and comfortable. Then I'll call the doctor and try to work everything out. I'll make sure we get to that in a minute." Yet she still didn't get it and continued to ask for things. For the evening, I succeeded in being patient, but I was pretty exasperated by the end of my shift.
   After I got home and got some sleep, I started thinking about the situation again. (When someone really annoys me, I try to learn something from them to put a positive spin on things) Then I thought about our relationship with God. We ask Him for things that we think are so important and need to happen right now. I make plans for my life and ask God to help me out. We think that our priorities and demands take precedence over God's.  I bet that God in His unending love might want to say to us, "That isn't the priority right now! There are other things in your life that I'm trying to teach you. There are things that I have planned for you that you don't even realize are important. Trust me."
    This was the lesson I am learning through that tough situation. I realize that what I can see and what I think is important is limited by my humanness. I have a very limited view. God sees the whole picture and knows exactly what is best.

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Love to all.
-C-

Can't complain

Oh blogging world, I wish I could sit down and talk to each of you to hear about your life and talk to you in actual conversation. Here are some excerpts/updates from my life.

a.  I am part of the 0.5% of the population who loves daylight savings time. It means that I get to see the sun for more than a 20 minute drive and when my sleep schedule is bonkers, I feel like I wake up at a more reasonable time. Also, how about this weather? It is amazing what some vitamin D can do for for my mood. I'm lovin it and I can't complain.

2. I'm afraid I'm going to be a little vague at the moment, but I  want to tell you all that I have a new opportunity coming up. If you think of it, pray for me this Thursday. Changes could be happening, and I'm very excited. Further updates to come :)

III. I just got off working a 3 night weekend. I had a patient for all three nights who was on suicide precautions for attempting suicide at home. On one night, I sat in the room for about 25 minutes while his sitter went on a short break. First of all, he was the biggest flirt I've had so far (not in a creepy way but a fun way). Second, I got to talk to him about changes some bad habits, about God, and about hope for his future. It was one of the most uplifting conversations I've had with a patient in a long time. Thirdly, it brought parts of my life into perspective, and I can't complain.

D. I'm still learning lots. I might have mentioned that my floor gets a crazy variety of patients. Sometimes, I have patients that have nothing cardiac related even though they're on a cardiac floor. I see a little bit of everything, so I learn something new each night. Also, I've reached a point where I feel pretty confident in my skills. People ask me questions now and actually value my opinion. I think that the nurses I work with are absolutely fantastic about helping each other out when it comes to trading knowledge. I never feel bad about asking a question, and it makes me feel valued when another nurse asks me for help.

$. Here's a list of things I like. Shamrock shakes, blueberry muffins, sweet potato fries, the book Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie society, ultimate frisbee, zumba, Dancing with the Stars, sunshine, flip flops, vacation days, racquetball, fresh flowers, cheese and crackers, wearing shorts, my Easter playlist, phone calls, and so many other things. I am so blessed.

Love,
-C-

6 Months

   There are times in your life that seem to fly by and others that seem to drag on. Sometimes an hour seems like it can last forever while a day can seem so short. In some ways, time can drag and speed along at the same time. I've been working for 6 months today. In some ways, that time has flown by and I can't believe it's already March. In other ways, I think to myself, "it's only been six months? It's seemed like forever!" 

   I feel like anniversary posts are supposed to be special, but I did not come into this post with a plan so we'll see if anything special happens.

   To start off, I'll tell a short story that made me laugh. 

   We had a patient (not my patient) who was extremely confused and in restraints. When we got there at seven, he was yelling out profanities galore. As the night went on, it got louder and more frequent. As in a constant stream of terrible language at the top of his lungs. I learned a few new combinations that I wouldn't have thought of by myself. The nurse taking care of him got an order for a sedative which you have to give as a shot. She asked me to come in and help hold his arm to make sure he didn't jerk. I agreed and we went into the room to explain the procedure to him. The nurse said, "Mr. _____ we're here to give you a shot that will help you feel more relaxed and calm." He stopped his yelling, looked at us, told us to hold on a sec, turned to the wall, and resumed cussing somebody out. There was no one there. After he got the shot, he was much calmer until early in the morning when the shot was due again. I once again went into help the nurse and as we were talking to him, he started to call us some terrible names. The nurse said, "That's not very nice, sir." He looked at me and stated calmly, "I'm not talking to you." Then he turned to the wall and proceeded to loudly insult the unknown entity. I'm not quite sure what he saw in his mind, but whoever or whatever it was, I want to keep my distance. 

    In honor of 6 months, I'm going to share the top 6 things I've learned. Disclaimer: I might be repeating something mentioned in other posts. 

6. My biggest strength is my focus and efficiency. I am darn good at getting stuff done. I always leave on time and have everything done in a timely manner. I'm pretty proud of this skill. 

5. My biggest weakness is my focus and efficiency. Sometimes I am so focused on getting stuff done that I miss moments where slowing down would be beneficial. Hopefully, when I write my next post about new things I've learned, I will have figured out how to still be focused but not miss those important moments. 

4. I want to go back to school soon. I thought when I started nursing that I could be a floor nurse forever. I've learned that even though it is a good fit for me now, I recognize the fact that I can't do it for the rest of my life. It's hard and exhausting physically, emotionally, and mentally. I want to go to school so I can have other options. 

3. People will never cease to surprise me. I am so often startled by a person's remarks or the way a person reacts to something. I have developed a poker face that I use frequently to mask my surprise at something someone says. I love the variety. I love the surprises. I love people. They make life interesting. 

2. Living life as a new grad, getting an apartment, starting a new job, working night shift, adjusting  to change.... these are really tough things. Change is hard. There are times that I feel like I'm rocking this life and there are times when I question my ability to function. As I'm sitting here reflecting on the last six months, I am trying to picture where I was six months ago. I have come a long way and accomplished a lot of things that I wanted to. I also have a long way to go. I have a list of both my accomplishments and my goals.  Life is hard, but I have a fantastic support system and a faithful God. I'm looking forward to where the next six months will take me. Hopefully, I'll have a few more things figured out :) 

1. I was reading in Matthew the other day and I read the verse, "Whatever you did for the least of these, you did for me." This gave me the reminder that even when I turn someone who can't even turn themself and can't even say thank you, I am serving the Lord. When I put a 300 pound woman on the bedpan every half hour, I am serving the Lord. "Whatever you do, do with all your heart, as working for the Lord and not for men." Even when it is so hard to see any fruit from my hard work, I can remember that it's not about me. I am so thankful for this because I admit that there are times when it doesn't feel very good. If I was a nurse only for me, I'd lose my compassion and my ambition. This has to be the biggest thing that I've learned. And ultimately, it makes it all worth it. 

I think that pretty much covered it. Thanks for reading. Love to all. 

-C-