Wednesday, February 17, 2016

All the Feels

In my time as a nurse, I have experienced some emotional roller coasters. For the most part, I can keep all of the appropriate facial expressions and words in place. A majority of the time, I can even keep it together til the end of my shift. But I just want to say, that my job is anything but monotonous. I have a few examples in my brain right now, so I'm going to try this without knowing if it'll work. And because I'm me, I'm typing this because I never go back and edit anything so I have to explain my thought process as it's happening. Otherwise, you'll be like, "That was pointless and stupid and not thought out." Well, you were right. My idea is to give a feeling/emotion and then give you a story to go along with it. You'll have to be the judge on how well it actually works.

Heart-broken: Unfortunately, this is an easy one. My favorite patient passed away last week. She had been on and off our unit for months. We knew it was coming, but that didn't make it any easier. She had a small child and was way to young to die of cancer. We saw her decline over the past few weeks. She was one of the patients that I would go talk to when I had a little extra time. She more than a patient to me, and I'll miss her a lot. This particular death is going to hurt for a while. 

Amused: A patient came in for altered mental status. He was very kind and not at all malicious, but he couldn't keep still. In addition, he wasn't very good at balancing. He got up to go the bathroom and sort of fell into my coworkers arms. He was a good deal taller than her but looked down at her and said, "Shall we dance, my lady?" WARNING: NURSE TALK AHEAD. He then proceeded to attempt to use the bathroom. He was unable to really get going and stated, "It's a pity. The urge is strong but the flesh is weak.........I should've been a preacher" We started laughing and he nearly fell over again when he laughed with us. 

Annoyed: A lady is on her call light the minute her pain medication is due. She is medically stable, but gets so upset when you're 5 minutes behind because you're taking care of someone who isn't as stable. In addition, she is so drugged up that she's asleep most of the time so she has to set her alarm so that she can get her medication right on time. 

Happy: A patient's kids are in the room and I let them "help" me get their mom's vital signs. I get my stethoscope and have them listen to each other's hearts and lungs. I talk into the stethoscope and the little girl starts giggling uncontrollably. I get them some juice and crackers and when they leave, they come to the nurses station to say goodbye to me. 

Sad: A patient was so in denial of her condition that instead of sending her home comfortably with hospice, we saw her deteriorate in the hospital and get sicker and sicker. It's hard to watch.

Befuddled: A patient with severe mental disabilities went to the bathroom and wouldn't come out. Nothing we tried worked. Nothing at all. Not bribery, not good nurse/bad nurse, not coaxing, not physical force, not the doctor who tried, not any of the nurses or aids, not leaving her alone. We were completely at a loss. It took 5 or 6 people over an hour and a half to get this woman back to bed.

Disgusted: You have a gross story? I can top it. Not on the blog of course because it's rated PG or E for everyone. I got PG-13 stories galore. I could paint you visual (or olfactory) pictures that would give you nightmares.

Grateful: I had a patient who I talked to for a long time and was so kind and thankful for the care that I gave her. It's amazing what a difference it can make when a person says thank you. I also realized recently how rarely someone says thank you and means it. We talked about a lot of different things and got on the topic of Jesus and our faith. She shared her testimony with me, and I am so grateful for a position where I can have real conversations with people on a daily basis.

Angry: This emotion isn't very frequent. However, I recently dealt with a family member who refused to listen to the nurses and went against what we asked him to do. This resulted in harm to the patient, and I got very upset.

Cynical: I was taking a walk with a patient who had just had surgery. Her family member came along with us for moral support. I encouraged the patient to get to the end of the hallway and then take a break. She sat down a little out of breath, so I told to take 3 deep breaths. The family member apparently took a cue from me to give her family member a 5 minute lecture on deep breathing/meditation/ asana yoga. Then she looked at me and nodded like she had just done me the favor of the month. I chose the word cynical because I couldn't think of any other word to describe "Rolling my eyes". Thanks lady. I appreciate your vast wisdom on how to breathe.

Amazed: I see God's work every day. I see Him through my patients and coworkers, and I am so grateful. People are so unique and so gifted. Even when I'm having a bad day, I can put it back into perspective by looking at my patients. Many of them glorify God even while cancer rages in their body. I am so blessed.

Hey y'all! This is my 100th post!!!!! I'm heading to work now. See you soon!

-C-

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Pondering

Musings, adventures, questions, and ponderings in no particular order

1. I don't really get you guys. I post something and expect lots of views, but only a handful of you look at my post in the first day. Then there will be practically no viewers for a couple of days. And then there's a whole bunch of views on a random day that has no correlation to when I post. Do all of you decide to check my blog on the same day? Let me know. 

II. January was wonderful. I intentionally planned fun things in January because it is usually the worst month in terms of sunshine and happiness. I saw the Lion King musical in Chicago- A+. I saw the Potted Potter show in Chicago-A. And I went to the Dancing with the Stars live tour- A. However, at the tour, I met some of the dancers which puts it up to an A+. I was really brave and asked Alan to dip me. It was worth standing in the freezing cold for an hour and a half.  Here's a picture



















c. I can't say no to anything. I started coaching a soccer team with my sister. It's a bunch of 2nd and 3rd graders for just one day a week for just over an hour, so it's not too overwhelming. They are so much fun, and I can definitely see myself doing this for a long time. 

  • How many nurses does it take to change a lightbulb? One to complete the task, one to sign off on it, and fifteen minutes to chart on it. (I saw this on Pinterest. Didn't make it up)
5. I started my second semester of grad school.................................. I will thank myself someday. 

F.  We got a piano again! Yay! 

n. I wish that the times when my ideas and my motivation occur would coincide. I have great ideas on my commute to work, in the shower, and while I'm falling asleep. I'm motivated for approximately 2 hours before I go to work. If these two could line up, those two hours would be amazing. 

?.  I'm really sorry for this fragmented post, but I have no laundry for work tomorrow, I have grad school assignments due,  I have to check Facebook and watch Netflix, I have to figure out how to get the package that I accidentally sent to my old address, and I need some cocoa. See ya on the flip side. 

-C-

P.S. Read the book The Martian. You'll thank me later.